Diamonds Pearls And The Dark Night of The Soul

“Please allow me to introduce myself, I’m a man of wealth and taste…”
–Mick Jagger (Sympathy for the devil)

In case you haven’t read the last few installments, I went over some precious outpouring that I think it valuable before proceeding to this current reading;

You can find them here:

The Chakra Tarot Draw Reading

And here:

Single Draw When Cards Repeat

Diamond and Pearls and the Dark Night of The Soul….

Obviously the similarities between diamonds and pearls are that they both derive themselves from years of harsh environments.

One by inflicting severe irritation the other squeezed under extreme pressure until both become something they weren’t before.

How eloquent that both epitomize the analogy of the dark night of the soul. As an entity undergoes tremendous stress and irritation, it’s no wonder those who chose the spiritual path seem to, at times, go insane.

Things make no sense. Life of harmony is beset with tribulation and unending tests of will, courage, endurance and faith. Family issues, financial issues, boundary issues, not being understood by others, feeling alone in our journey’s…

Walking in spirit while praying we don’t rip someones throat out in the process…
I’ll never mince words with you, I believe if you read my works you resonate with me, for you too are what I call, A Spiritual Warrior.

We are not dainty inside or out,
we don’t fart flowers to make light of what others would like to call the illusion of life.

While the woowoo’s would like to see the world through rose colored glasses, we feel the rawness of life in its entirety. The good and the bad, yes empathically we each care for and help others with our experiences our emotions and our time.

We, are not afraid of adversity.
But… most of us are bit too comfortable with it though…

We are a cast unto ourselves. But where we must draw the line is in our love for ourselves. For the compassion to look into our own eyes and really really say to ourselves “I Love You”.

We fear being too vulnerable, that embracing spirit will soften us to the wiles of everything around us and make us unable to defend ourselves or those we love.

That passivity will cripple our sense of self, that the cherished attitudes and characters we’ve become so accustomed to will wither away, never to be seen…

Let me tell you first hand… It’s not so.

I am like you. Seeking. Always seeking…
Is the search finally over?
For the moment…

Now, it’s time to remain consistent, having made the decision to accept my commitment. It’s either Change or Stay Stuck.

The story of the two wolves seems quite poetic to apply here so bare with me:

An elderly Cherokee Native American was teaching his grandchildren about life…

He said to them, “A fight is going on inside me, it is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves.

One wolf is evil — he is fear, anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, competition, superiority, and ego.

The other is good—he is joy, peace, love, hope, sharing, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, friendship, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.

This same fight is going on inside you, and inside every other person, too.”

They thought about it for a minute and then one child asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”

The old Cherokee simply replied: “The one you feed”.

Now to the reading;

As you know, or at least I do hope you’ve read or plan to catch up… I do my one card draws until I’ve received clarity from the initial draw. I shuffle the deck every time I draw a card, which means I at time may draw the same card twice.

As I’ve mentioned in the prior post…

This is called repeating cards. This recent draw is evident that something I experienced a while back (repeating msgs) still happens, but can be clarified if the intent of the querent is determined to hear what’s being given.

And like the last, indeed I was intent to hear, as you shall soon see… Here’s the reading.

	The Question: My Dharma: Mind you, never ask anyone what your Dharma is… They are not you, and will not know what your contract is with life. XVI The Tower – Upright: A life shift, total change in perspective. To some, this card is not a very welcome card. This is a rock your whole foundation card. This is a major shift unraveling everything you may think know. When I saw this card, I had a really good chuckle. After everything I’d been through the last few days, this could not have come at a more appropriate time. If there was anything that needed shifting at the moment it was my foundation, because it had recently sucked.
	The Question: And then What?4 of PentaclesUpright: Trust that you have a secure foundation. On the surface you have to admit this looks very very good right? A guy holding a box of goodness outward to you in a giving gesture… What could possibly be bad about that?  So of course I had to ask…
	The Question: How? 5 of Wands – Reversed: This card represents a struggle between self-expression and the discipline to sustain a focus. Keywords: Obstacles and challenges. Reversed: Harmony prevails. Should I laugh again? I most certainly did, how could it not be so? Honestly all I saw was the card, I didn’t see it as reversed since upside down it still looked like quite the struggle occuring. But it was upside-down, and yet I didn’t get the full message, and thought…
	The Question: But I Love Me Now, So?!? 4 of Pentacles Upright: Trust that you have a secure foundation. Hah! Here We Go Again! What was I saying earlier about repeats? Why would I draw the same card after a response to the last draw was about me loving.. oh you get the picture, “Great you love  yourself, then Here… You’re right where you should be then”…. So, I rest after this card, I know I’m not quite done, I sleep on the draw cuz it was getting late, and the next day I ask…
	The Question: Ok what does today mean?: I’m ready, can you tell I’m ready? XIII Death:It’s not just a passage. You must leave behind ideas and beliefs from your past that are no longer vital and alive to birth new ideas. Upright: Regeneration, rebirth.  Now all I can see is the same as the tower, CHANGE, its all about change. I can feel if I’m walking and talking change, I’m going to get change. I’m thinking change, I’m at the point where I’m no longer okay with the way I’ve been thinking feeling acting and the self talk thats been going on. Ovuh-Done-Finito-Kaputsky-Cya

Does this make me a spiritual wonder boy? Not on your life…
But, I have done this kind of work before and I have changed who I was, the way I thought, felt, acted, reacted and behaved in the past. So it was just a matter of making the decision and then commiting to the decision. Just because I made the decision, don’t mean Jack unless I act on it. And I’ve been acting on it.

Until the next post.
Be blessed