So I decided to go to the waybackmachine and look up the cached article… nothing
Seems wayback only has cnn up to 2008, after that, nada…

Did a little more searching.. and found the original article, cuz ya know, people love to scarf content, so I figured SOMEONE had to reprint this highly viewed post.

Sure enuff I found it… I look over the content and it has all the information regarding the alignments between venus earth the sun and Elenin… If you don’t know what Elenin is, its just a comet.. a fictitious comet.. how is that? Well…

Remember the movie Sudden Impact? You know that movie with Morgan Freeman as the president and the meteor? That meteor was called Ele and the person who found it was called Leo … Ele-nin was discovered by some (also fictitious) guy named Leo-nid … interesting how life keeps imitating art huh?

Back to the site research.. so I decided to leave it be, since I found the article, I had the data… no biggie, or so I thought… seems after some time wasting on facebook, I was about to close down and save the page for future probing… cant
The site with the copied content suddenly has a can’t connect to database error…???

Now, I’m a true geek and it could be just that some server somewhere is going through its maintenance routine.. but just for the heck of it I was able to snag the data from google cache and place the post on one of my sites… Thing is.. if its not some service maintenance, why is this stuff suddenly being pulled off by tptb?

But lets get back to reality.. If its all fictitious… Then its just the last part of the article that isn’t wanted let out, and all that is, is the same rhetoric fear based crap, prepare for the worst get your stuff in order and hunker in while this puppy does its thing…

I play with an open manual, which means I don’t believe everything, and I won’t deny everything either… I have a decent BS detector and somethings just require deeper introspection than knee jerk reactions can deliver…

So, with that said, last I see, the site is still down… So I drew cards…
1 for Elenin: Kn of Pentacles
2 for Planet X: The Chariot
3 for 2012: 6 of cups -reversed (Clarification card): 6 of wands reversed…
4 What can I do in regards to the last two cards: 10 of swords

For those who don’t know what this means; I’ll update at tarotsideoflife.com
For those who do know what it means…. Is it just me or what???

Back when I was say about five years old, I was watching TV with my mother. It was dark, I don’t know why we had most of the lights down but the only light in the living room was the soft warm blue light from the black and white picture tube we were glued too…

But nature called and I took my stroll to the bathroom which also had no light on at the time except the faint luminescense emmiting from the window above the bathtub…

The curtains were drawn so the whole window could not be seen and seemed to elongate a shadow below the window, thats what locked me in my place at the doorway of the bathroom.

While the window was closed there was a sillohuet of a man like figure in it. Dumb founded I stared intensly to make out any distinguishable features I could train my hyper imaginative brain on to make sense of what I was seeing until….

“Hello” the shadow said in a very caml subtle male voice.
HOLY SHIT!!! My mind screamed… IT (which was all I could think of calling the sillohuette) not only saw me, it spoke to me.

Naturally I freaked and ran screaming to the living room… The rest of the memory is now a cut & splice, but trying to get mom to the bathroom was the only thing I remember trying to do, so she could see what I saw…

Now, someone being on the fireescape looking in and playing around with a five year old would easily wipe this event away as explainable. The problem being the only firescape located on the building was the one on the bedroom side… With a 30 foot drop from the bathroom window, only spiderman was capable of such a feat.

Or…..

Enter the untold story that only emerged in the last 8 years…
In the same apartment, it was admitted that both my mother (and) father witnessed an apparition of a lady in white garb standing in the doorway of their bedroom… My mother witnessed it first and smacked my father hard on the right hand side to wake him. He did, turned to ask what the hell is wrong but the figure in the doorway caught his attention before finishing his swirl to face my mother…

The figure stood tall and near featureless minus the slight shades of pale grey outlining what appeared to be a nightgown, for a few moments and then drifted into the ethers to the right towards my room.

Up rushed my father through the bedroom door and then peered up and down the hallway, but there was nothing there… Into the hallway his bare feat soundless against the pre-war concrete floor and opening the door to my bedroom my father found me fast asleep unperturbed by the frantic heart pounding of my parents…

But I was told the image in the window was my imagination..

Which means, those who choose to express Free Will over any other influence, will still experience the influence of others who are not so devout to their ownership of such a gift. God help us.

Being an Aries, having the rising sign of Mars lately has been at an all time high when it comes to the madness of Mars.

One challenge seems to be compounding upon another.
Financial challenges, family challenges, spiritual & emotional challenges… I’d go into it, but…

Oh what the hell why not, another Dark night of the soul for me last night. I’d had it, I’m fed up. The cards have been giving me what I wanted to hear. And they seemed to continue to get more enlightened as to their meanings.. Yet the current situation for this soul has increased in the negative.

So when I asked what it all means for me, I pulled The World.

Now, There’s a thought going round to claim your responsibility for everything that happens in your life. Everything. But after a while, like decades, it seems that this is just plain bullshit. Maybe its true maybe it isn’t.

I started recalling all the things out of my control which happened to me.

Abusive parent, lack of a productive grounded role model, unprotected from predators, denied audience with people of the cloth, betrayed by family and friends, falsely accused too many times to account here.

I once tried to get work in Vegas through the union as an electrician, the deal was to get the lead from the union hall, get in and start organizing. I made it clear, I’m not organizing until I’ve gotten a foot hold on some stability, I’m a family man for godsake. Help me get straight and I’ll start spreading the word.

Nine W2′s later in one year, shop after electrical shop would let me go after 3-4 weeks after hiring me because they got word I was organizing… But I wasn’t. Three weeks to a month is not what I call stable.

And the one shop I went to outside the hall kept me on, but a pattern was showing itself from within the ranks which I couldn’t help but notice. Those who asked for a raise, within a week received a pink slip. So when my foreman came to me and asked why I wouldn’t ask for a raise, I was very clear in my knowledge. “Because I need the job, I’m not stupid and don’t you frickin dare go and ask for me…” Three weeks later he asked for me…

I got my slip…

I made a break, knowing the only path that was ever narrowing, was my exit from existence. I made a desperate call and got a ticket back to NY.

Meditating and praying every day & night. for 2.5 years sleeping on one of those roll-up foam chair / bed things and no steady work outside of some time with Radio Shack. Where I became the radio shack answer man before there was one. Remember the RS Answer Man?

Anyway things started looking up. I took a $5 / hour job with some computer company and began my career with information technology.

After 9 months of no raise and very little to send back to my daughter and no way of getting my own place I bounced. Took a chance with a company called Banctec. Became a support person for every make and model desktop – laptop on the market from Hewlett Packard, Dell & Compaq to Sony and Toshiba. I became a hardware, software support expert.

But the pay sucked…

So I bounced again, took another chance with Compucom for a spell as a contract employee.. Time was up and they chose someone else instead of me. But I was pointed to their competitor Entex, where I moved through the ranks briskly and wound up in a project management position.

When I started Entex had a whole floor in a building on Madison Ave. Within three years the office was a ghost town. So I know it was only a matter of time before I was next on the cutting floor.

So I bounced once again.

This little adventure worked out that every-time I bounced I got at least a $10k raise in my income. This last bounce pushed me to a $20k raise.
But I had to go independent contractor, incorporate and deal with 1099′s.

Yes things were looking up. Or so I thought.

3 months into the new location at the world trade center, I did a roll-out where we replace old hardware with new for every department of Deutsche Bank

So we get a department with a semi big-wig. Everything was per protocol, back ups, builds, restores and finally the roll-out with a warranty disclaimer to not do anything physical or software wise for at east 48 hours… They decided to negate the warranty. And all the new machines were going down left and right.

I did the right thing and extended the support for 3 days after the allotted time and they were still having issues. Finally we got everything back to normal. But that wasn’t good enough and the bigwig made a call to another bigwig and my head was on the chopping block.

Demoted from my position to satisfy the bigwig client and I was eventually bumped to a new location. This time pure on the floor support for an advertizing company called Foote Cone & Belding, or something like that.. FCB for short…

All was doing okay.. again I had assumed it was…
Some guys who were on top of their game were getting axed, and many months later were still out of work… The signs were not looking good.
I get a call to fix a palm pilot that wasn’t syncing properly and kept crashing in its process… I have to admit I got a weird feeling when they closed the door to the office and let me do my magic.

20 minutes later I’m done and out of there, everything back to normal. Until three days later I say hello to the person with the palm pilot and get a real nasty glance back. “Da hell was THAT about?” I wondered.. I found out…

Some idiot had called that client and made some totally stupid remarks in a sexual tense and went on to mention items that were in her palm pilot.
They made me the only one with that information so I was the the only likely culprit. Now I’m being told I’m to be let go because the client won’t continue the company’s contract unless I’m gone…

I’ll add this, before my termination it was discovered that the owner of North Point Communication the owner of FCB, had a younger family member VIP, who had made several of these calls to several female employees of FCB and she was one of them, but that didn’t matter. He was untouchable. And I was. So…. off with my head.

I had just gotten back from my honeymoon when this happened.

Also, no lawyer will take this case, your guilty even if proven innocent.

Great….

Remember Banctec? They lost major contracts with Met-life one of their biggest clients. Left the hardware support thing and outsourced everything to India. Now does Healthcare and Imaging processes..

Entex? Was bought out by Siemens Intl. who scraped the whole company.

Compucom? Flailed a little longer than Entex but fell to its own demise and became an after thought. Never to be seen again.

FCB? Another after thought. Bought out by Adbrands.net, but God only knows what that means.

Six months no work, no leads and I’m floundering cause unemployment is just about up. I get a call from a friend of a friend. “C’mon on down, I have a client who totally messed up their network and can’t get any reports done.”

I’m there in a heart beat. Within the third visit it became apparent that this friend of a friend had very little clue as to what to do for this company. In fact it seemed every-time he came the original problem got fixed but spawned new and exciting problems for the client.

Approached by one of the clients consultants, I was asked if I would consider a position. “Absolutely!” I exclaimed. One of my first duties was to relieve said friend from his constant calls to this company. I had enuff problems cleaning up their home-built network for this little known international company to last an IT tech’s lifetime without some Seagull consultant coming in making a lot of noise and shitting all over the place.

Within 2 months the Mail server dies and their network is cutoff by AT& F’n T and we’re back on dial up as fast as I can get the damn thing going… I got a hold of a dear friend and wizbang genius who was on his own to restore the mail-server and get it back in place.. Thus earning me a warm spot in the heart of the CFO of the company.

I’m tooling along now, life is great, I’m hiring friends who were out of work and building my team of support for this watch company who was slowly selling themselves to their outside accounting firm.

Not to mention the owner has now inherited the company from his father who built this little empire from scratch and literally owned the building on the corner of Queens Blvd and Northern Blvd. This new owner who has the not so, secret reputation of being a womanizer only hiring secretaries who are lets say, well proportioned in the exaggerated?

This owner who asks me if we’re secure, if our info is safe. Apparently he has some apprehensions… Well even if you lock down and secure the data best you can, you still can’t rule out human potential. “Hard copies are impossible to secure unless you have the resources of a defense contractor” I tell him.

I’m suddenly witnessing catastrophic levels of layoffs within the company. Huge areas which were teaming with life are now becoming ghost towns… Hmmm.. this looks frighteningly familiar. Heads of departments who once thought they were going to retire within a year or two are severed from their positions…

To make matters worse, one of the so-called friend I hired is making suggestives to female employees and not only getting busted for them but decides to hand over a laptop that used to belong to a female salesperson who just got the axe… All this in less than a months time.

Bye bye Dan, it was nice, but not so nice… Why? Because it happened on my watch. Not to mention, I had just mortgaged a house and we just found out a week ago, we’re pregnant.

MZ Berger Watch Repair and Design; Gone. They were the leading income earner in that area of Queens NY & second in the industry only to Bulova.

Out of my control…

I won’t go into my wife who was on Paxil when I met her, post traumatic stress from the irreparable abuse and torment of her father and others, medically diagnosed as bipolar who forgets conversations at the worst opportune times, who was at 9/11 next to building 7 smoking a cigarette when the second one hits… during the pregnancy the following year, has full blown panic attacks, after the birth of our angel, who was born on my 40th, goes into postpartum depression and makes my life a living hell as if it wasn’t already without any of her help.

Nor will I go into the insanity my first daughter had endured during my lack of presence… That one I won’t go into at all… just hurts too gotdamn much and makes me homicidal.

The struggle continued for years like this afterwards.
Another smash in the face like these occurred in 2008 with another bounce that I wrote about sometime back.

You can read that here.. Confused No More

and it’s followed up here.. You Think You know My Story

So yesterday was yesterday, and tomorrow is tomorrow and right now I’m divorced with a second darling daughter. This one I get to see unlike my first whom every time I got a chance to save to visit something would take the cash away.. Education loans, taxes, medical attention you name it, it came and made things harder.

Is there a moral to the story? You betcha!
Life sucks and you move on.

And to think.. there really are people out there who really would trade places with me. Am I grateful? Yes. Why? “Expletive” if I know.

All I know is…
1.) Ya can’t keep a good man down &…
2. ) I am the proverbial Come Back Kid.

Purge & Release Time | The Respite:

Obviously, no tale like this can go on without a counterpoint.
Beat down and bruised, our egos continue their travells learning new ways and means to take our lives and turn them every which-a-way.

Situations pass, some take longer than others. Are there some good times in there? Hell yeah there are! Are there times that absolutely made you feel like the world was your oyster? Yes, yes indeed there were!

Can you allow the past insanity to be just that, the past?
Yes, I’m sure you can.

Can you allow tomorrow to be unwritten with no connection to the past?
Yes, I think you can do that too…

Being practical and being a realist doesn’t mean that unpredictability doesn’t happen.
In fact, it happens all the time. Change happens in the blink of an eye, and yes sometimes it does take longer than one would like.

The change we create in ourselves though. This can take as long or as short a time as we decide. Our personal power, our Will Power if you like, is ours to dominate. It’s ours and no one elses.

If we commit to our decisions, and act upon those commitments, then change can only be experienced and not a wishful dream wafting in the breeze.

Today this very day, I am in control of my Free Will, I erase whatever emotional attachments I have to the past, and go forth accepting that this is just my story. One of thousands I have accumulated over this lifetime. But a story of our lives is not finished until our last breathe is taken, and even then, how we’ve affected others can live on for centuries ye even a millenia if we stay commited and true to ourselves.

The rest is still unwritten….

Until the next post
Stay focused

In case you haven’t read the last few installments, I went over some precious outpouring that I think it valuable before proceeding to this current reading;

You can find them here:

The Chakra Tarot Draw Reading

And here:

Single Draw When Cards Repeat

Diamond and Pearls and the Dark Night of The Soul….

Obviously the similarities between diamonds and pearls are that they both derive themselves from years of harsh environments.

One by inflicting severe irritation the other squeezed under extreme pressure until both become something they weren’t before.

How eloquent that both epitomize the analogy of the dark night of the soul. As an entity undergoes tremendous stress and irritation, it’s no wonder those who chose the spiritual path seem to, at times, go insane.

Things make no sense. Life of harmony is beset with tribulation and unending tests of will, courage, endurance and faith. Family issues, financial issues, boundary issues, not being understood by others, feeling alone in our journey’s…

Walking in spirit while praying we don’t rip someones throat out in the process…
I’ll never mince words with you, I believe if you read my works you resonate with me, for you too are what I call, A Spiritual Warrior.

We are not dainty inside or out,
we don’t fart flowers to make light of what others would like to call the illusion of life.

While the woowoo’s would like to see the world through rose colored glasses, we feel the rawness of life in its entirety. The good and the bad, yes empathically we each care for and help others with our experiences our emotions and our time.

We, are not afraid of adversity.
But… most of us are bit too comfortable with it though…

We are a cast unto ourselves. But where we must draw the line is in our love for ourselves. For the compassion to look into our own eyes and really really say to ourselves “I Love You”.

We fear being too vulnerable, that embracing spirit will soften us to the wiles of everything around us and make us unable to defend ourselves or those we love.

That passivity will cripple our sense of self, that the cherished attitudes and characters we’ve become so accustomed to will wither away, never to be seen…

Let me tell you first hand… It’s not so.

I am like you. Seeking. Always seeking…
Is the search finally over?
For the moment…

Now, it’s time to remain consistent, having made the decision to accept my commitment. It’s either Change or Stay Stuck.

The story of the two wolves seems quite poetic to apply here so bare with me:

An elderly Cherokee Native American was teaching his grandchildren about life…

He said to them, “A fight is going on inside me, it is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves.

One wolf is evil — he is fear, anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, competition, superiority, and ego.

The other is good—he is joy, peace, love, hope, sharing, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, friendship, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.

This same fight is going on inside you, and inside every other person, too.”

They thought about it for a minute and then one child asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”

The old Cherokee simply replied: “The one you feed”.

Now to the reading;

As you know, or at least I do hope you’ve read or plan to catch up… I do my one card draws until I’ve received clarity from the initial draw. I shuffle the deck every time I draw a card, which means I at time may draw the same card twice.

As I’ve mentioned in the prior post…

This is called repeating cards. This recent draw is evident that something I experienced a while back (repeating msgs) still happens, but can be clarified if the intent of the querent is determined to hear what’s being given.

And like the last, indeed I was intent to hear, as you shall soon see… Here’s the reading.

	The Question: My Dharma: Mind you, never ask anyone what your Dharma is… They are not you, and will not know what your contract is with life. XVI The Tower – Upright: A life shift, total change in perspective. To some, this card is not a very welcome card. This is a rock your whole foundation card. This is a major shift unraveling everything you may think know. When I saw this card, I had a really good chuckle. After everything I’d been through the last few days, this could not have come at a more appropriate time. If there was anything that needed shifting at the moment it was my foundation, because it had recently sucked.
	The Question: And then What?4 of PentaclesUpright: Trust that you have a secure foundation. On the surface you have to admit this looks very very good right? A guy holding a box of goodness outward to you in a giving gesture… What could possibly be bad about that?  So of course I had to ask…
	The Question: How? 5 of Wands – Reversed: This card represents a struggle between self-expression and the discipline to sustain a focus. Keywords: Obstacles and challenges. Reversed: Harmony prevails. Should I laugh again? I most certainly did, how could it not be so? Honestly all I saw was the card, I didn’t see it as reversed since upside down it still looked like quite the struggle occuring. But it was upside-down, and yet I didn’t get the full message, and thought…
	The Question: But I Love Me Now, So?!? 4 of Pentacles Upright: Trust that you have a secure foundation. Hah! Here We Go Again! What was I saying earlier about repeats? Why would I draw the same card after a response to the last draw was about me loving.. oh you get the picture, “Great you love  yourself, then Here… You’re right where you should be then”…. So, I rest after this card, I know I’m not quite done, I sleep on the draw cuz it was getting late, and the next day I ask…
	The Question: Ok what does today mean?: I’m ready, can you tell I’m ready? XIII Death:It’s not just a passage. You must leave behind ideas and beliefs from your past that are no longer vital and alive to birth new ideas. Upright: Regeneration, rebirth.  Now all I can see is the same as the tower, CHANGE, its all about change. I can feel if I’m walking and talking change, I’m going to get change. I’m thinking change, I’m at the point where I’m no longer okay with the way I’ve been thinking feeling acting and the self talk thats been going on. Ovuh-Done-Finito-Kaputsky-Cya

Does this make me a spiritual wonder boy? Not on your life…
But, I have done this kind of work before and I have changed who I was, the way I thought, felt, acted, reacted and behaved in the past. So it was just a matter of making the decision and then commiting to the decision. Just because I made the decision, don’t mean Jack unless I act on it. And I’ve been acting on it.

Until the next post.
Be blessed

This recent draw is evident that something I experienced a while back (repeating msgs) still happens but can be clarified if the intent of the querent is determined to hear what’s being given.

In the past 20 years, I’ve been involved in self-help group-help meetings and programs for various personal issues. From dealing with parental anguish of alcoholism to my own substance abuse. Just so we’re clear I’ve been clean & sober or whatever you wanna call it for over 20 yrs. But life issues and family dynamics continue to be ongoing lessons in this entities current soul journey.  So, I still go. Not as often but I have my commitments I tend to.

During this time I’ve come across many in the industry of self-help self-growth who have achieved closure to their family dynamics. While 99% of these (closure) occurances happened to those whom their antagonist had passed away, mine is still alive and for now very active in my living circumstance.

It’s easier to deal with your troubled, toxic relationships when the time of exposure is on your terms, limited in occurrence, and you’re given appropriate time to build your required boundaries. Most women and some men I know, know what this is like, to NOT be able to control when and where these in-your-face events will happen. After all family IS family.

Before I got into Tarot I was gifted by my last wife with a set of Rune oracle casting stones. This after I showed some interest in oracles as I was casting draws in I-Ching. The runes became a cherished path for my intuitive growth allowing me to be in touch with my subconscious.

Of course we want to engage questions that pertain to the future, divination.

I’m not sure I have this touch. I am confident in my seeing as to what is and what has been. But as for seeing into the future? It may be that I fully understand that, within this dimension or [paradigm] there are multiple forks based on mans Free-Will to choose, based on his or her experience. Leaving the future open to the possibilities of what-will-be’s can-be’s or to-be’s… but it’s never written in stone.

As one very interesting character told me, as he questioned my senses as to what he was wearing, the color of his skin and other tests of my seeing (of which I’ll just add) my abilities aren’t parlor tricks to be used on a whim. For me they don’t work that way. If I’m in state, it’s more because I’m allowed to see, rather than the ability to see on command. Don’t know why, maybe my initiation has not come to fruition, maybe this is how its given to me. But after the questioning test, he told me the best I can do was guess at what I’m getting.

To my answers, he didn’t flat out deny them, but almost burst with my accuracy, had it not been for his station as a disciplined master warrior cast, I think things would have gotten a bit giddy.

But I’m being tangent minded, so let me digress. While casting for I-Ching or the Runes, I was constantly drawing the same stones or anagrams over and over again. With the same similar messages… Prayer, Meditation, Patience… These were like a tattoo drilled into my subconscious and seemed to over rule almost all questions I had concerning various matters. In other words, it didn’t matter the question I posed, those base responses would constantly show in my casts….

In other words the constant repeated messages, they frickin drove me crazy! Why?
Because, at the time I didn’t want to hear them… I was afraid of meditation, I was afraid of prayer and I certainly didn’t want to be patient.

This happened before I became aware of my grandfather’s activities as a local Shaman. He wouldn’t call his station, or trade of community spiritual healer Shamanistic. But culturally, that’s exactly what it is and he ( his spirit ) has approved my labeling as such. Which means my long night of the soul may well be a reoccurring theme in my life.

So when this repeated message comes to you in your cards, or readings. Don’t seek a different meaning, but for clarity from & for the meaning. It will come. And you will know, follow up draws and readings are ready for you to receive, when they are thematic in nature and congruent to your request for clarity. For instance…

	The Question: What do I do about my current effortsKnight of Swords – Reversed Reversed: Opposition.Opposition, yeah, I’ve been feeling that already, so???
	The Question was what do I do then?The Lovers – Reversed Reversed: Divisiveness, differences.Huh? As to what? Surrendering to a higher power? Making choices… ? What choices.. (I knew I just wanted clarification…)
	Differences in what?The Lovers – Reversed… no joke, it showed up again and reversed. Ughhh…A choice must be made, right okay… in regards to my efforts, what the heck does this have to do with .. I’m not sure I like where this is going… Spiritual self knowledge?
	Okay please explain: The Hierophant: – Dignified Upright: Traditions, conventional wisdom.Oh Here We Go! What was I saying earlier? These cards, when they talk they scream “LISTEN I’m Tellin You What You Asked To Know!”
	No seriously what does that mean? :Notice my obstinance? The Hanged Man – ReversedReversed: It’s over and done with. You can’t go back to the way things were. It’s time for a change of consciousness.Pshawww Man!??! A long time ago I was given a choiceChange Or Die… I later went the high route. Once again I am given this same choice for a different set of circumstances
	I feel like I’m doomed, so, now what? The Star – ReversedReversed: To restore hope, get in alignment with your higher spiritual purpose.What did I mention earlier about, Prayer, Patience and Meditation?Pay attention to the follow up, its pretty interesting…

After this last draw, I decided to have hope. I hadn’t yet fully accepted to fully commit to my prayers, patience and meditations thinking that was ging to make all the difference in the world. Until…

I get a call at 12 midnite from a multi-millionaire self help practitioner who was offering free consultations in exchange for a testimonial.

This wasn’t exactly out of the complete blue. I had responded to an invite earlier in the week, but because of family interruptions, I missed a positive response to get together…

Now two days later I thought I had missed the boat. And was left to figure this out on my own until the phone rang and we were back on.

He walked me through myself, talked me through what I had been experiencing, and what I’ve been telling myself. Explaining to me what I was currently thinking,  behaving & believing which was obviously not working.

And basically I have a choice.
Change or stay stuck.

I can still hear the echoes of my old thoughts now as I write this, but they are at bay. I’ve made a commitment years ago and made incredible changes in my life. It’s now time to re-commit & re-apply or stay where I am. I don’t want to stay where I am.

Change is not for people who need it, Change is for people who WANT it and are willing to make the effort. Fortunately for me, I’ve witnessed and experienced the change I’ve become in the past. I just needed my switch flipped.

Being in a similar field, I won’t say I made his job easy. But I can say I love him for being him. It’s what I’d do for another given the chance.

To learn more about Brian Ridgeway Click Here—

http://principlebasedsales.com/

PS: I’ve been in life transformation for over 20 years. So I know there is no magic overnight turnarounds…Well, that was, until now. I talked with Brian after hearing about his invitation to help anyone get unstuck. It’s change or stay the same, and I’m certainly not into staying the same. What Bryan delivered was a stupendous refresher course in what helped me change the first time around, this time with a more energetic & practical paradigm I needed to hear. Brian took his time and broke through my barriers like a kid taking apart a cherished Lego set that they just created. I’m confident Brian will work magic with any situation you have issues with. He did it for me, and I’m hyper skeptical of everyone. Give him a go, I promise, you’ll be glad you did.

Dan Lopez Founder of  Spiritual Warrior Today & The Tarot Side of Life

http://principlebasedsales.com/

Until the next post…
Be Blessed

I’ve always been one who has an affinity with swords, I think its the Warrior Archetype in me.  On occasion I’ve been told to take the stance of the Christos and accept all as it is. Lay down my weapons of emotional destruction and be still long enough to let whatever is happening pass.

Well…

It seems the challenge is on its way to mi casa this afternoon:

From the complete idiots guide…

Meaning: This card urges you to take time out. It’s time to reflect on what you have accomplished and to replenish yourself for the next step. Often it points to restoring yourself by going back to your roots, exploring your family background or just returning to “home base”—the source of support and love in your life. This card reminds us that introspection, contemplation, and stillness are vital to restoring our well-being and clarity. When the 4 of Swords appears in a reading, it suggests that you set aside your sword, for the moment, and go within yourself. You are safe within the inner sanctum of your being. Think yoga’s corpse pose, shavasana.
Upright: Retreat to stillness.

I went for a bicycle ride yesterday.  I haven’t been on one in at least a decade. I rode 4 miles to and 4mi back. I think my heart was about to jump out of my chest of its own volition and ask me if I was insane. The thing is, at certain points during the ride, I had to shut off the thoughts and emotions and detach from the situation in order to continue my progress or I was doomed to walk for however long it took to recover…

This state of mind I’ve adequately termed “going on impulse”, has gotten me to destinations I would have normally given up on. I believe this is the exact same measure I’ll need to engage the next few days…  I can’t seem to maintain this state for extended periods, only for those moments which last as long as the task is set for. After that, its breathe heavily and bring back my heart and soul to my life as my ego wonders what the hell just happened… Its funny to watch the egos reaction when you allow it to revive itself… My ego looks blankly at me as if it just got slapped unconscious.

And indeed you have my little hyper sensitive psychotic schizophrenic.. Now shut up and sit still while I regain my composure.

Until the next post…
Be blessed,

Just threw this out there to see what I needed to hear…  After the chart, I’ll break down each section in the reading so you can see how this all intertwines to coincide with my current experiences. Between my Chakra energy centers, and my higherself getting the feedback from my centers to help me see just what, where, how and why I need to do my work.
Can you tell whats going on in my life these days?

Root	Survival	3 of Wands-Reversed	Reversed: Get back to the vision; seek collaborators and supporters.
Sacral	Sexual	Ace of Swords – Reversed	Reversed: Ease up.
Solar Plexus	Power	8 of Swords – Reversed	Reversed: New hope to see beyond the fear.
Heart	Love	8 – Strength	Upright: Conquering fear through love.
Throat	Communication	Knight of Pentacles – Reversed	Reversed: Giving in to futility.
Brow	Intuition	10 of Cups – Reversed	Reversed: Desire for family contentment, but delayed.
Crown	Spirituality	Page of Cups – Reversed	Reversed: Moody daydreamer.
Kundalini	The Snake	Knight of Wands – Reversed	Reversed: Chaotic, misdirected energy.

Ok, this is a lot to take in. So lets break it down.

My Root Chakra is my place of connection with the Earth, and that connections direct link with my core foundation or spirit. I’ve been given the opportunity to work head on with one of my greatest difficulties from childhood. One that I’ve consistently given away my power to. One that always seems to reduce me to less than human status.  Thus the Root is telling me to get the support required to raise its vibrations of this all important center.

My Sacral Chakra is the passion, desire and emotional driving force behind my intentions.  Obviously, being told to ease up is about as direct a message as one can get regarding current efforts deisres and expected results… To not ease up is to increase unnecessary stress and anxiety upon myself. Seeking a more patient demeanor towards issues that have revealed themselves and those I’ve been working on.

My Solar Plexus Chakra, the power center, the palce that takes whats been built in te first two chakra centers and moves them into action…  Action. The biggest barrier against action is fear. I have several situations going on which if achieve fruition I may encounter success.  One is with the one whom I’ve given my power to, the other is the recent audio series the gift of tones which has been a labor of love. This card the 8 of swords reversed is another impressive raw for me concerning what I really needed to hear. If my Solar Plexus or power center is not vibrating at its optimal level it won’t have enough juice to raise the vibration of its surrounding chakra centers.

My Heart Chakra,  are you seeing how this draw is so powerful for me? The Love center, overcoming fear with love. What was the last one about? Fear, and yet again I am faced with the (how) as in,  how to deal with this. With love. Acceptance of everything given in my situations at this time may be overcome with love. Love of myself, love for others, love for my work and love for the future that may come.

My Throat Chakra,  my communication center. What am I iven, if I give into fear, if I give my power away, if I lack the proper love for self others or my work? What voice will I have?  I will have none, no voice. Thus I have to go back to my heart and my solar plexus my sacral and my root to build one upon the other so I can communicate the strength I have in my heart to you, to others and to myself.

My Brow Chakra, the intuition center and the 10 of Cups reversed. This card shows up in a lot of my self readings. I’m a family kind of guy. My recent divorce has placed a heavy heart upon my psyche regarding this area… Even after almost 2 years THIS is the number one thing on my mind, therefore is there any doubt whatsoever that this card be drqwn right where it is? But what is it telling me? Withi this on my mind, my intuition is stunted. I have very little room to bloom with this where it is. I can put this to rest, realising that for now it’s out of my hands and I should do what I know to do until the delay is over.

My Crown Chakra, the Spirituality center. And the Page of Cups reversed… This is the card that tells me, I’ve been neglecting my duties. Not that I haven’t been attempting contact with Source, but that I’ve not been commited to the task and still expecting great results in this area.  As plainly stated in “Matthew 6:33 — But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”

Constantly, I struggle with this, I don’t think there are many of you who don’t, but I presume to much… Given all that this culture of ours has to vie for our attention and place priority over the simple matter of getting up in the morning and getting right with the Creator of our spirits before we tackle the rest of the day, or even lay our heads down and give thanks we can breath our last breaths before we sleep. Gratitude seems to always alter my perspective. It’s really no wonder I’ve been moody… after reading the above, I’ve just been acting out my energy system, reacting to everything from without and waging my inner battles from within… With that said… The next comes as absolutely no surprise whatsoever.

My Kundalini, the snake which circulates around the chakra energy centers, bringing the vibrations of above so as below. Some say it pierces each center as it travels trough your system, as well as being duplex, a dual snake system which helps spin the centers or vibrate the centers so they radiate vibrantly as we attempt to commune with all of creation and thus bring the infinite to this 3rd density, the finite. What does this wonderful card have to tell me?  The Knight of Wands reversed, Chaotic energy misdirected? Is that freakin appropriate or what?  This reading is probably one of the more profound readings, bringing clarity to a system otherwise known only to be found in some several days of therapy sessions. Yet here it is in full color. I’m just a traveller just like you. I have inner work to do, just like you. Iknow the work, its simple, its not easy. But I’d rather face myself today than face myself tomorrow.

I don’t need confirmation anymore, but its nice when it comes:

ARIES: March 21 – April 20: You keep getting hassled by someone who isn’t ready to look at themselves. At this point it seems like you have become the scapegoat for everything that never worked in their lives. Even if you’re pissed, there’s no sense in activating more anger with a defensive attitude. At times like this knowing how to deflect negative energy, or protect yourself from it is a Godsend. You could call in the Witch Doctor but you’ve got enough white light and enough good sense to handle those who lash out whenever life make it clear that they are lying through their teeth

Be blessed my friends
I hope you enjoyed the reading as much as I enjoyed delivering it.

Until the next post

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Sacred Geometry, Flower of Life, ET’s, 2012, The Merkaba, Mayan & Hopi Prophesies and The Creation of Love and the Heart.

The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life Volumes 1 and 2
Merkaba Meditation

These volumes were published in April 1999 and May 2000 respectively by Light Technology Publications.

They encompass the materials that Drunvalo teaches in his Flower of Life workshops.

The content takes in:

* An outline of sacred geometry and the part it plays in the creation of everything in the universe
* Background and theories with respect to the ancient civilizations of Lemuria, Atlantis, and Ancient Egypt, including the sources of humanity including the Nephilim and the Sirius people
* Merkabah meditation
* The five levels of consciousness

Drunvalo describes Merkaba meditation as creating a 55-foot-wide (17 m) energy field around the body with two counter-rotating tetrahedrons spinning at about 90% of the speed of light. Drunvalo writes that the energy from the Merkaba field is strong enough that it has routinely set off radars and electromagnetic monitoring equipment resulting in visits from helicopters sent to investigate in the middle of his workshops. He describes how he and groups he has worked with have been able to amplify intention through their Merkaba fields and for example create clean air for several miles around them, visible in the skies above them, by the ring of polluted air beyond.

Living in the Heart

Living in the Heart was published in November 2003 by Light Technology Publications.

In this book Drunvalo focuses on the sacred space in the heart, which he says the reader can access at will through meditation and training. He states that when you access the sacred space of the heart, you are at one with all of life, connected to and sensing all energy. The proposition is that modern western humans are in their mind and see themselves as separate to everything in the world. Drunvalo teaches that by accessing the sacred space in your heart, you can create anything.

Serpent of Light – Beyond 2012

Serpent of Light – Beyond 2012 was published in January 2008 by Weiser Books.

This book is a diary of events beginning around the time the Dalai Lama left Tibet, at which time Drunvalo alleges an event began which only occurs once every 13,000 years, the movement of the Earth’s Kundalini or Serpent of Light, which had run from the Earth’s core to the surface of the earth in the Tibetan Mountains for 13,000 years. He tells of his involvement in a series of events with many indigenous peoples in ceremonies that played a part in facilitating the successful movement of the Serpent of Light to its new home in the high Andes of Chile.

The book describes the emergence of what he calls the Unity Consciousness Grid, and of the callings that drew him and others to play a part in completing it. This grid will play a part in the shift in consciousness that will occur sometime within “The End of Times” window lasting from 2007-10-24, when the Hopi prophecy of the Blue Star was fulfilled[citation needed], to 2014-10-24 and not necessarily on the date when the wheels of the Maya calendar align on 2012-12-21.

The Unity Consciousness Grid is said to be a network of energetic connections between sacred temples and sites around the globe and special crystals which link them, creating a grid which will support an increasing, shared, “unity consciousness”.

Through the years to 2012, the book prophesies a movement to feminine-led consciousness which will last through to the end of the next 13,000 year cycle.

Drunvalo Melchizedek’s Biography

Drunvalo is the author of four books including The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life, Volumes I & II, Living in the Heart and his newest one, Serpent of Light. These books have been published in 29 languages and reach out to over one hundred countries throughout the world.

He has been on television and the internet, and written about in magazines, newspapers and books all over the world.

He is a world traveler leaving the United States to go somewhere in the world to help people understand their intimate connection to God more than 280 times.

Drunvalo is the first person in the world (in modern times) to mathematically and geometrically define the human body light body called in ancient times the Mer-Ka-Ba.

He is a consultant for the international internet magazine, Spirit of Maat, http://www.spiritofmaat.com with over 1 million viewers each year.

He is the founder of the Flower of Life Facilitators that have been teaching his work in over 60 countries.

He has now founded his newest (and complete) teaching in a facility called School of Remembering with the Living in the Heart Teachers who are beginning their global work.

Drunvalo graduated from the University of California at Berkeley with a degree in fine arts. He also has a minor in physics and math with only one quarter to finish his degree.

He lives in Sedona, Arizona with his loving wife Claudette. He has six children, and four grandchildren.

Please visit www.drunvalo.net – for more info.. Check out Drunvalo’s website @ www.drunvalo.net for more info! Or get his books (e-book format)

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